pre-new year's new year's resolution

My lack-a-daisical ways are not helping my cause. So I've decided to become more strict with what I'm doing.

Or at least try to be...

I am making a few resolutions for New Year's.

1) I am going to take a year off of McDonald's food again. As I was driving home tonight, I felt the urge for a salty burger. I don't ever want that urge again. Those things are so bad for me... bad for people in general.

2) I'm cutting back on soda. I'm sticking to water, juice, and the flavored water from Walmart. I don't need the extra bubbles.

3) I need to fit in 15 minutes of exercise EVERY DAY. This one is going to be the hardest one. I can forgo the McDonald's and the soda, but finding 15 minutes each day is gonna be tough. I just have to schedule myself.

That's it... for now. I'm gonna pick up on the New Year with a complete breakdown of everything. If I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna do it right. The next year will be the year I finally do something with myself... FOR myself.

It's gonna be a good year, I can feel it.

Laters,
Erin

I apparently suck at this!

Okay, I need a new strategy. It was going so well but .... I don't really have a something after that but. I just stop doing... anything.

So I need a new plan.

My schedule has changed a bit, so I need a new plan to work with my new schedule. It shouldn't be too hard; I just have to commit.

So... I need to schedule 30 minutes every day to exercise, and then I need to schedule 15 minutes to blog. (15 minutes should be enough time, right?)

I'm gonna start at day 1 on Sunday. I am counting up again, but I'm only going to do weekly weigh-ins. I figure that a constant daily reminder is a bit too depressing for me. I nice weekly check-up is more my speed.

Now for my 30 minutes. I'm planning on pedaling right when I get home from work and before I have to go into work again. This might not make any sense. I work 8 to 2 Monday through Thursday and Saturdays. So I'll be consistent 5 out of 7 days. On the off days, I'll do it the first thing when I wake or as early as I can before I work at the theater. This should work for me.

So I have my exercise planned out. I'll blog then as the last thing before I go to bed. Or around that time. It might be late, late, late (especially around Midnight showings) but it will be consistent. I think that's what I really need. Consistency.

So that's it for now. I'll talk at ya'll laters.

Erin

Day 28 & 27

Sorry I missed yesterday. I worked long at the cinema and skipped out on both the weigh-in and exercise.

But today is a special day!

I participated is Steppin' Out in Pink where I walked 5 miles in 1 hour and 50 minutes. That's 1095 calories burned. Woot!

I feel fantastic!!

I will write more later when I am not as busy.

Bye for now,
Erin

Day 29

Good afternoon!! I'm in a wonderful mood right now. I just finished 30 mins of biking and even though my legs feel like spaghetti, I FEEL FANTASTIC!!!

I found this website that will help me keep track of calories burned. I feel that that is a good thing to know.

So at my weight this morning (311.5) and for 30 minutes, I burned 523 calories. Plus I was also working with some hand weights my sister has, so that's an additional 224. For a grand total of 747.

Again, I feel FANTASTIC!!

(Complete side note, but this website also tells me that if I spent a half hour having sex - moderate effort, of course - I would have burned 112 calories. Something tells me that that number should be higher.)

I have to tell you what I did. So, as I reported yesterday, my bike is a little worse for wear, but what do you expect for FREE!!! The seat is the biggest problem, so I tried something. I took the seat completely off and pushed the bike as close to my bed as possible. So I'm laying on my bed while my feet as spinning the pedals. That's why I went and grabbed Linnea's weights. I needed something to do with my hands. I know it's probably not the best set-up, but it's workings for me. Just add some music and set the timer for 30 minutes. It was wonderful.

I might go again later. I really don't have anything else going on today.

Well, that's about it for me.

Laters,
Erin

Day 30

I'm counting down, remember. One month begins today.

I weighed-in this morning at 311.5 lbs.

I planned to spend 30 minutes on my bike, but it was more like 15 because I needed to adjust the seat. Then I ran up and down 2 flights of stairs because I was trying to get the seat off my broken bike which was in storage. I wasn't able to, as all the bolts are rusted to crap, so I have a wonderful bike that I can't sit on comfortably. The seat pivots and sometimes I feel like I'm gonna fall off.

But I'm gonna keep on going because I have to.

I worked a so-called double today, so that's gonna work for me. It's so-called because the open shift is more like half a shift.

Tomorrow I'm going for a full 30 minutes. That is my goal. 30 minutes a day for 30 days. And don't worry about the missing 15 minutes today, as I count the stair climbing. And on Saturday I'm "Stepping Out in the Pink" or something like that. I'm walking for breast cancer research. 5 miles! WOOT!!

So... that's about it for today. I'm very excited about this new start. I've got a goal and I've got means, so I'm very set to do this.

Plus, I've been taken a wonderful mix of vitamins that have been helping me in the mood department. Iron, fish oil, and super B complex. It's mainly the B that's lightening my mood, those the iron helps replenish what is lost in the menses. Yes, I'm still going and IT SUCKS!!!

That's it for me today. I'm gonna put my feet up. They hurt quite badly.

Laters,
Erin

Lost my track

So I've lost my way, but I've refocused and will be starting again.

I am going to restart the countdown, too. I'm thinking doing an actual countdown. Start with a small goal and go from there.

I'm also excited to announce that I am the proud owner of an exercise bike and I am totally gonna use it everyday.

Okay, so my short term goal is 10 lbs in a month. That's both reasonable and healthy. (1-2 lbs a week is the goal the doctors have been telling me all my life)

And my long-term is 150 lbs by next year.

So that's that, and I'll be starting this tomorrow for two reasons. 1) I have an appointment to get to soon and then I have to work. 2) 9-9-09 has a real nice ring to it.

I do have a third reason. My bike is still in my car and I have to re-arrange my room so I have a place to put it. Both of which will be done after work tonight.

So I will talk to you again tomorrow.

Laters!

Week 5, Day 2

I didn't post for a week. I don't know if you noticed this or not. I was going through some things and couldn't make myself write an entry and still feel good about writing that entry. So I just took a week off, but I'm back now.

My weigh-in this morning was 302.5.

I don't recall much of what I eat yesterday, but I know I had roast and boxed sweet potatoes for dinner. The roast was delicious... the sweet potatoes... not so much.

Today I am working in vending... so... yay! Then I have a class immediately following in which I will be teaching an unknown number of people First Aid. So.... yeah.

Honestly I'm considering leaving the Red Cross. I don't feel like I'm doing good there anymore. I like teaching the classes, but it seems like we just can't get people to take them (damn economy) and so I'm only teaching 2-3 people at a time. To me that's just a waste of my time. I could be doing something else more productive like working at the theater... where I know I'll always get the hours I'm assigned... where the entire staff likes me... where I'm respected as someone who knows their stuff... where I'm one of the top members of the team. Yes, it doesn't pay as much, but it's more enjoyable.

Sorry, but I've had a lot of stuff go floating through my mind, and I don't know what else to do with it. I know I don't have a lot of followers, but I do feel that those of you who do read do care. And I'm glad for that. So very glad. I often feel like I have no one to vent to, and that is really what I want to do with this blog.

Don't get me wrong, I will still mainly talk about my weigh loss goals and progress, but I believe being able to discuss the other aspects of my life will help me "keep on track" with everything. So, that being said, I need to talk about something.

Is it normal to bleed for over a month and not die?

I have been discarding menses (I will use that term as it is the scientifically correct term) like they're going out of style. And I have since before I started this blog! On the other hand I hadn't for about 7 months prior, so I could just be making up for lost time.

Right now half of you are disgusted and the other half is wondering why I'm not going to the hospital to check it out. The first half will just have to scroll down to the next paragraph or something, because I need to talk about this.

For the second half, it's because I can't. I have been to the doctor several times before about this exact problem, and no one is able to tell me what the hell is wrong with me. NO ONE!!!!! They always do the same thing. They put me on some pill to stop the bleeding and then when it's done, they put me on "the pill" to hopefully control the cursed organ. I am then overally hormonal for several months, until I no longer have money to pay for my prescription, before I come back to normal - or as close as I can get, that is - until I start over-menesing all over again.

During this time, I have come to term with some specific facts.

1) I am most likely barren. But this is a good thing, because honestly who would want me to breed.

Sorry, it's comments like that that had me stop blogging for a week.

2) Weight is a factor is whatever is going on with me. That is the one thing the doctors can all agree on. So by losing the weight, I'm hopefully going to get this under control.

3) Living without health insurance sucks!

So I'm gonna give it another week or so to see what happens. Then I'll probably be forced to go in and get it taken care of with money I don't have, and neither does my parents, and the doctors will be able to tell me nothing, as per usual.

Quick question: When you look at me, do you see someone who is stupid? Because I ask the doctors (medical, optical, etc.) to tell me everything, because I like to know, and I get nothing. The last doctor I saw about this, gave me the most information though. She told me that it was possible that I had PCOS. Here is an except from the Facebook blog the last time I had this problem.

PCOS stands for Polycystic ovary syndrome. PCOS is a chronic condition that
causes irregular menstrual periods and elevated levels of androgens in women.
(from a pamphlet the doctor gave me) So this is what the doctor told me. And I'm
going to try to be as close to her words as possible.

Fat cells produce estrogen. Estrogen cause the lining of the uterus to
thicken. It's like the uterus is a lawn and estrogen tells the lawn to grow.
It's like the rain. (I'm not kidding. She actually said this.) Then progesterone
is like the lawn mower. That triggers your menstrual cycle.

That was November 9, 2007. So, it's been awhile since the last time, but it always comes back. And the doctor later told me that I didn't have PCOS, that I was perfectly normal other then being obese and having slightly high cholesterol. The latter I blame on not being told to fast before their damn blood tests.

So I'm a picture of health, and yet... I'm not gonna say it again. I don't know what to do and I'm sick and tired of not knowing what is wrong if anything.

I'm sorry for the lengthy post, but I really needed to get this off my chest. I gotta start getting ready for work.

Laters,
Erin

Week 3, Day 7

Good afternoon everyone. How are all you wonderful people?

You are probably wondering why I seem so happy. Well wonder no more...

My weigh-in this morning was 299.5. I am under 300! YAY!

Okay, so it's not by a lot, but I'm thinking this is the motivation I need. I'm under that horrid weight. I feel like dancing. (Even though I did a lot of dancing last night. For more on that wonderful experience go to mindlessdribbling.blogspot.com.)

Now for my eats yesterday.

I had a bowl of imm. Special K for breakfast with a banana. Then for lunch I had... a brownie. And for dinner I had... I bowl of imm. Honey Nut Cheerios.

How exactly did I get under 300?

Oh, I drank some Gatorade A.M. at the dance ... and I danced ... a lot!

One thing, though. I am dead tired right now. I'm trying to eat some food so I have energy, but I'm not sure if it's working. I'm just really drained. It might be because I've changed my sleep schedule and have to get used to it. Or it might be that I'm home only with the dog and have to energy to do anything because I don't have anyone to do anything with.

That made sense in my mind.

I'm so drained I can't think of what else I wanted to say today. So I'm gonna end for now and if I think of anything else, I'll just edit the post.

Laters,
Erin

Week 3, Day 6

So it's morning and I needed to add another post. I like having this available to vent. So I'm really glad I decided to start this.

It takes about an hour to upload a video, quite possible longer. I wasn't timing yesterday's as I was kinda falling asleep when I was uploading.

So I hope you enjoy the video. I don't script them or anything, but that's kinda obvious when you watch it. My goal is to save enough for a real camera so I don't have to use the webcam on the laptop. One, so I can edit, and two, so my sister won't yell at me for using her webcam. J/k, she doesn't yell at me. (Shh! She's reading this right now...)

Well... I gotta go. Gotta clean my car.

Laters,

Erin

Week 3, Day 5

I wish going to try to post a video blog - or vlog for you trendy people - but for some reason I can't find the video I filmed on the web cam. I'm so confuzzled on the whole built in web cam thing. I wish someone could just explain it to me so I could become an awesome YouTube star like sxephil and shanedawson. That or I need to stop watching YouTube videos.

My weigh-in was 306.5. Which is a number I keep hovering around. I know what I need to do, I just don't know what to issue a change. Change is scary. I don't like change, unless it's of the money variety.

Today I had McDonald's for lunch at 2pm and dinner of chickeny wrap things and juice. at 11pm.

Which is another thing I had issued in my video. I'm really upset that I can't find it on the computer. Grr!

WAIT!!!!! I found it. I'm gonna post it now. Keep in mind that it is completely unedited as I want it to be real.

Here goes:

I hope it works.

Anyways, I really need to get to bed, though staying up late will make sure that I will get up later which in turn will make sure that I will stay up later tomorrow. It may all work out perfectly.

Mwauh-hah-hah-hah-hah!

Was that too much? I think it might've been.

Well... that's about it....

WAIT!!!! again....

I have an update about the project I was working on. Since I had some time today to do stuff, I worked on the script pretty much all day today. I'm almost done. When I am, I am going to ask a friend or five of mine to read it to make sure it sounds script like and see if they would change anything. Then I'm gonna edit, edit, edit.

Woo-hoo!

And that is about it for me today. Gotsa go to beds.

Laters,

Erin

Week 3, Day 4

I didn't write yesterday, but my weigh-in was 360.5. And this morning is was 305.0. I don't remember what I had for breakfast yesterday, but for dinner I had meatloaf, mashed potatoes, and green beans. It was delicious.

Yesterday I was set to work at the theater from 830am-600pm. Instead I working 1130-600 because I wasn't needed for the Kid's Rule. My issue was that they wrote on the schedule Open-600 and to me that reads 830 in stead of 1130 as it was Kid's Rule and the theater opens at 830 for that show. It also helped that when I went in the day before just to check, cause I knew this was gonna happen, no one could tell me what I needed to know. So I went in at 830 and was sent home for 3 hours. Fun! Fun!

Today I did have to work at 830am, and we sold out the Kid's Rule. It was awesome!

I don't have anything planned for the day today, except I have system training for MiM at 7pm. I think my sister is planning on going for a walk with me later, so that will be nice. Until then I'm gonna work on a project of mine.

I've had this idea running around in my head for several years now, and I'm finally to the point where I'm gonna type it up and go from there. It's really awesome in my head, and I hope it translates well to paper.

What is this idea you ask? Well... I don't know if I want to tell you. Okay, I will.

I'm working on translating the movie Saw into a small stage show. It's just the first one, IMHO the only good one, and I'm planning a cast of 4. That's all for now. I can't really explain it yet without monstrous drawings, and I don't have those drawn yet. But it's gonna be awesome. I wonder how to get in contact with the authors to get the rights to perform it? I should wait to think about that until I have a working script.

Another project I'm working on is a YouTube series. I'm in the casting stages right now, so if you are a guy, I'm looking for you. I need 1 female and 2 males and I have the female already. I also need a camera. That would probably be very important.

That's about it for me today.

Laters,
Erin

Week 3, Day 2

Gemini - You can't know everything, all the time. You'll be happier if you stop trying to.

Apparently they don't know me that well. I already know everything, all the time.

I keed.

So yesterday I thought I was going all good and eating awesomely and being all awesome at work. (Do I use that word too much?) But I apparently was as awesome as I thought I was.

My weigh-in this morning was 308.0. Yikes! That's a jump.

I had imm. Special K with banana for breakfast and leftover pizza and a chicken sandwich for dinner and a really long time in between as I worked open to 430 at the theater and then had a class from 500 to 900 that evening. And don't worry... I didn't go 12 hours without eating anything... I had some popcorn at work.

But apparently it wasn't enough, as I am up 5 pounds! How is that even possible?

I had planned all this stuff to do on my day (kinda) off today, but now I'm too bummed to do anything at all. What a cruel vicious cycle!

Anyways, I'm gonna go sulk in my room for awhile trying to find something to fit on my fatness.

Laters,
Erin

Week 3, Day 1

I new week starts ..... anew? Wow, that was cheesy.

I wish to start something new today. I am going to post the horoscope I get on my phone each morning. It will be like an opening quote, or something.

So pretend like the next paragraph is the beginning of the post.

Gemini - Energy's your middle name. Whatever the task, you zoom through it with high spirits.

Okay, so I'm supposed to have a lot of energy today. Let's see if that will actually happen. I work an open-430 today, mainly because I may (or may not) have a class tonight. But I haven't heard anything yet, so I assume I do have a class tonight. I'm gonna have to call them to make sure.

Yesterday I had cereal for breakfast, imm. honey nut cheerios to be specific, and a banana. Then I worked for a long time. When I got home I made a pizza (homemade, not frozen) and ate that with some ice tea. Plus, I ate too much, but it was weird cause I didn't feel like I ate too much. I just have to stop myself when I know it's been enough and not when I think I'm full. That way I know I'll be eating correctly.

I need to exercise today. It has to start today, otherwise I'm gonna end up going another week without doing anything. I just don't know how to schedule myself. I'm so tired when I get done with work that I just want to lie around and do nothing. AND THAT'S THE PROBLEM!!! I just lie around and do nothing! I'm sick of myself. I was hoping that this blog would give me some place to vent about everything and maybe that would at least get that weight off my chest. But what the hell was I thinking! Metaphorical weight, genius, it doesn't actually weigh anything.

Sorry, for that outburst. I just get so frustrated with myself.

My weigh-in this morning was 303.0, so the same.

I just don't know what else to say right now, so I guess I'll just chat again tomorrow.

Laters,
Erin

Week 2, Day 7

Early morning and a long day today. Working an open to 6 in vending and I worked a show last night. I'm gonna come home tonight and sleep.

I know I didn't do a lot of exercise this past week like I said I was going to. I think I just need schedule it out. Or get up early every day at like 5 and go walk then. Sounds awesome, but I need my sleep.

I just need to figure out someway to pull this off because I know that what I need to start losing weigh is to exercise.

But on to reporting on yesterday. I had a chicken and egg omelet on toast. Then I had a long conversation with Linnea about how the song Mother and Child Reunion was named after a dish Paul Simon saw on a menu that had chicken and eggs. She didn't believe me so I pulled up several very reliable sites to back up my statements. You can look it up yourself if you would like.

I also had a yogurt at some point in time.

And that was it.

Don't tell me, I already know. It was even better when we had to set up our station right in front of the buffet line. Staring at wonderful food for 2 hours...... it wasn't good. And then we danced the night away. YAY! Dancing!

My weigh-in this morning was 303.0. So good.

I want to mention something. I can't wait until I'm under 300. The scale that I have is wonderful in the fact that it does .something pounds, but over 300 it only gives you .0 and .5. It's kinda annoying.

Well... I think that's about it for me.

Laters,
Erin

Week 2, Day 6

Sorry for the lack of post yesterday. It's not that I was busy or anything. It was the opposite in fact. I was not busy at all. In fact I actually lounged around doing nothing all day until around 6pm when I drove to my aunt's so we could go to the Great River Shakespeare Festival. We saw Love's Labour's Lost. Lots of words spoken really fast, some of them actually comprehensible, but most of them not. But it was really, really good.

Yesterday, I ate ... what did I eat yesterday? I know I had the devil's food (McDonalds) on the drive to my aunt's. And I had a chicken sandwich for lunch. And a bowl of corn flakes for breakfast. And I think that was it. No, I ate some M&Ms on the way to the show, and some more on the way back from the show. They were in the car, and they were delicious!

My weigh-in this morning was 305.5.

I have a show tonight, and I hope my trainer will not be the stick that my trainer last week was. I'm gonna dance up of a storm and quite possibly have more fun than the couple getting married. It was supposed to be my check out show, but I got jitters and asked for one more week fully go through certain skits and games.

I'm trying to think if there was anything else I really wanted to talk about. So I'm gonna go get myself ready for the day. Think about what I'm gonna wear tonight, and finish my list of skits and games that I know and/or don't for my trainer to either do tonight or to at least tell me about the ones I don't know.

So that's about it for me today.

Laters,
Erin

Week 2, Day 4

So yesterday was a good day. I did absolutely nothing all day and then I drove to Waumandee for Chicken Night. I love Chicken Night!

I know... I know... I know! I'm a very bad person.

On the other hand, I didn't really eat anything before Chicken Night and I was down today, so I did something right.

My weigh-in this morning was 303.5.

This morning was awkward. I had agreed to walk for someone this morning. Well... I thought it was this morning. It is actually next Thursday. Super-fantastic-fun-time!

That's about it for me right now. I'm a bit distracted by some awesome TV. It's the bane of my existence, but I just can't help myself. I love the TV!!

Laters,
Erin

Week 2, Day 3

Again I want to apologise for yesterday's lack o' posts. But I'm back on track now.

Yesterday I had ................. Sloppy joes, a glass of milk, and some trail mix for lunch and ....................................... a pretzel bite, comp cup of icee and soda at work.

How did I make it through the day?

For exercise I walked some stairs, but not for 30 mins.

I seem to have found my problem. I need someone to hunt me down and make me exercise.

Do I have any takers?

My weigh-in this morning was 309.0, so I'm up... from 2 days ago. I could be down from yesterday, but we'll never know as I am too ridiculously busy to do stuff for myself.

Argh! That's frustrating!

On the other hand, I'm getting myself psyched for Ren Fest. It's really the one day of the year I don't feel like the biggest idiot in the room. Of course, I'm gonna need to remake my costume. I kinda left mine some place I'm never going to return to.

Or I could just rent one there.

Also I'm excited for Ren Fest because it is also the one day I'm okay with all the walking I do. I walk the entire grounds at least twice, and if you've ever been there, you know how huge it is. If you've never been there ... THEN WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!!!! It's the best place in the world. I would live there if they would let me.

On a side note, I'm trying to get together some more members for my band. So far it's just me and my friend Amber, but I'm thinking we might need more people for what I have planned. I'm trying to arrange A Capella versions of hair metal songs into something a bit more renaissance-y. Confused? It's really a long story that you will have to ask for more information.

Well, that's about it for me today. I've gots stuff to do and all the time in the world to do it.

Laters,
Erin

Week 2, Day 2

I'm not posting today.

But wait, this is a post......

Darn it!

Sorry, but there is no weigh-in today. I was super extremely busy and could not do what I had planned. But on the upshot, I worked all day and when I get paid (eventually) it's gonna be worth it.

That's was they all say, right?

Will do the update right tomorrow.

Laters,
Erin

Week 2, Day 1 (ie. Day 8)

I figure this will help me keep track a bit more of were I am.

This is a rather late posting, as I was with my aunt Peg all day yesterday, and I little bit this morning. So my weigh-in today is after a sweet breakfast of mini blueberry pancakes and milk. I love my aunt, and she is the best cook ever. (Behind you, Greg, as it is your job and all.)

Weigh-in today was 307.0. Which is great!

Yesterday, I went to my aunt Peg's house to do some laundry. Up and down the stairs pretty much all day. But we also went to a movie (The Proposal, great movie, but as it is a romantic comedy, you know how it ends.) and went out to eat at Chula Vista in Winona. I had a chicken enchilada platter and some fried ice cream. But don't fret, because I didn't eat it all. If I had gone to Carlos O'Kelley's I would've, but there was something off with this food and I didn't enjoy it. So if you're reading from the Winona, MN area, I wouldn't recommend Chula Vista.

I'm trying to think of what I would like to do for exercise today. I'm working from 330-930 in vending, so it's gonna be a lot of standing and filling orders, but I think I'm gonna need more sustainable exercise today. I'm thinking that when I get home tonight, I'm gonna go walking in the dark. It should be cooler than it is right now. Maybe I'll get my sister to join me. Yeah, that pig's will fly and the trees will be an awesome shade of purple. (In other words, she not gonna join me.)

Well, I gots some things I need to take care of today. Wish me luck and stamina to be able to walk for 30 min after work. I think I'll be fine, but just in case, you know.

Laters.
Erin

real Day 7

So for some strange reason, I titled yesterday Day 7 when it was only Day 6. Weird.

Today is gonna be short, as I am tired and have to drive elsewhere to wash some laundry.

Yesterday I ate some food.

I danced much more than my trainer.

And I fell asleep really early this morning.

Weigh-in this morning was 308.5.

I'm kinda stuck at this weight. I'm gonna have to start doing more. Starting tomorrow (cause that way I've done a week of normalcy) I'm putting in 30min of something every day. If I don't, feel free to haze me in the posts. I'm gonna need it.

I gotsa get going.

Laters,
Erin

Day 7

I would like to start with a correction on yesterday's post. I did not have a bowl of cereal and a banana for breakfast, I only had a banana. I was in a hurry to get to work and only had time for a banana.

It was the same yesterday, which made me think of it.

I had a banana for breakfast. Worked 11am-6pm, got home, left with Linnea to put my check in her account so we can pay bills, talked with the Alltel people, found out that we are stupid, started driving home, realized we were both hungry, ate at Culvers (mushroom and swiss burger with chili/cheese fries and a root beer, I hadn't eaten all day), went to Walmart to get groceries and other things, got back home, put groceries away, went to bed.

Whew!

Today I had to get up early, so early that I'm actually writing this after I've done some things. But I won't let that change my format.

My weigh-in today was 308.5, so I'm up a little. I'm not too worried about it because tonight I DJ meaning 4 hours of dancing! I will be down tomorrow.

Well, I have to continue cleaning the house today. Hopefully I will get some time to nap in the middle of the day. It's gonna be a long night, and I would like to get as much time as I can in tomorrow washing clothes. I really need to wash clothes. I think one of my shirts was talking to me the other night. Though it could've been from the movie I just watched making my mind race.

I'm sorry, but The Haunting in Connecticut creeped me out! I don't say that about a lot of movies.

That's all for today.
Laters,
Erin

Day 5

Already?

Wow, I can't believe I've been doing this for a week. Well, a work week anyways.

Yesterday I got up early, fell asleep, got up, fell asleep, and got up again. I was trying to get up to be somewhere at 8am, which eventually turned into 9am. I didn't have to be anywhere at a specific time, I just wanted to get there early and failed.

Actually yesterday was a rather depressing day, but I'll talk more about that later.

For breakfast I had a bowl of imm. Special K and a banana. (I feel like I have said that before. Maybe it's a running theme.) Then I worked for several hours. When I got home (4:30ish) I had a chicken sandwich and a glass of milk. Then Linnea and I had to run some errands. I got my schedule for Saturday, found out I have to find someone last minute to cover my theater shift for Saturday. Had a nice long discussion of finances with my sister. Cried for about an hour about said conversation. Sat in the wind for a long time as my sister tried to find out if she could get a new car. Found out that they would have to call her back at a later time. Went home. Had eggs and toast for dinner with a glass of milk. Watched a very good movie with sis and Liz, then had to watch something else because the movie creeped us all out. And finally went to bed.

I had no breaks at work yesterday. If you haven't heard (and have been living under a rock) Harry Potter 6 is out in theaters. We have 3 prints. We have a showing every hour on the hour! There are no breaks, and I was alone in the vending stand from 1230 to 330. I was bushed by the time I got to go home.

Side note: I have noticed lately that I am getting tiny pimples on my chin. They are very annoying cause I want to pick them off, but I know that if I do they are just gonna get red and irritated. I don't know why they are popping up, but I want to get rid of them. I'm 26 for pete's sake! I shouldn't have pimples.

Weigh-in this morning - 307.5

Which may look like a big drop, but yesterday I reweighed myself after showering and it was 307.5. So I've stayed the same. WOOT!

I have a 6 hour shift today in box. It's Friday, so we've got more new movies (besides HP6) so it should be pretty busy.

Laters,
Erin

Day 4 addendum

I almost forgot...

And one full....

And that's the caliber of awesome I bring!

Laters,

Erin, or should I say Bellatrix

Day 4

I don't do early mornings. But today I have to, as I have stuffs to do.

Yesterday I ate imm. Special K and a banana, a rib sandwich from Kwik Trip (damn them and their $1 sandwiches), a chicken sandwich for dinner, and 44oz of Dr. Pepper. And that was when I cursed all of mankind because my compy wasn't working and I couldn't do the work I was going to get paid to do.

I was out and about yesterday, as it was my RC pay day. So I cashed the money I got, put gas in my car, saved $40 to put gas in Linnea's car, and bought some essentials and one non-essential. So once again I have no money until Friday. Of course, that money is going to whatever bills we have.

If you haven't noticed, my life sucks. Just saying.

Weight this morning was 311.0, so yesterday was truly a fluke. Or is was the 44oz of DP. I could go either way with this.

I work around 7 hours today, so it should go down a lot. YAY! standing all day! WOOT!

Yes, I'm being sarcastic. That is all I am in the morning.

Hopefully I will get out of this funk I am currently in.

Laters,
Erin

Day 3

So I am super tired right now. Working the midnight showing of HP6 and yes, I got to watch the movie while I worked. But I didn't enjoy it. Not the movie, the movie was great, I just couldn't get into it.

From a full review check my other blog http://mindlessdribbling.blogspot.com.

So yesterday, I woke, blogged, then went about my day. It seemed to work for me.

I ate a bowl of imitation Special K with sliced bananas for breakfast. A chicken sandwich for lunch/dinner, oh and I had a cup of juice with that sandwich. It was tasty.

And that was it.

Yes, I know you're reading this going, "Erin, you are underfed."
No, I am not. I just don't seem to remember to eat when I have other things going on and there is no one in my house to remind me to do so. Like if Linnea's here, then we eat together, but on weekends she's not, I sometimes do eat all day. Yes, I know, it's very unhealthy.

Moving on....

For exercise, well, I sewed a costume for about four hours. I walked several flights of stairs for a meeting. Oh... and I walked back an forth between 4 theaters for 2hours 45min. (I can't sit when I'm working.)

For those wondering, I do have pictures of my costume... they are on my sister's camera. They will be added tomorrow.

And that was yesterday. Fun!

My weight this morning was 308.5. Which is a significant dip from yesterday, and surprises me because I still have a ton of hairspray in my hair from last night. Well, see was tomorrow brings. If it turns out that I keep going down in weight because I'm blogging about it, well, then I should've started blogging sooner.

Laters,
Erin

Day 2

Good morning everyone!

So let's update yesterday....
Immediately after typing my blog I went and ate something.

I had a bowl of cornflakes and a banana.
About an hour later I had a nectarine.
For dinner I made a casserole of noodles, chicken, Cream of Mushroom soup, nacho cheese, and green beans. I ate a small bowl, found it really salty, and drank a bunch of no-name fruit punch.

Then Linnea came home, she ate her portion, and thought it was delicious. So maybe it wasn't as salty as I thought it was.

After a couple hours, I got snack hungry and ate some trail mix. Mainly craisins and cashews.

I didn't go out and walk like I wanted to, but I do have all day today to do ... something.

I weighed myself at 10:05am. Most likely the best time for me to do so as I don't work (usually) until 3pm. So it's I good time.

Weight today is 312.0 lbs.

It's probably from the different time of day or the lack of jeans, but it puts me in a good mood. I should be able to get a lot done today.

Now I'm off to find an outfit to were to work tonight. Midnight showing of HP6! YAY! I'm thinking Crazy Carter, but I don't have a lot of clothing I would like to rip to shreds. I do have the shirt I made for HP7 book release, but I don't know if my boss would get coming in as a spell. But I have all day to figure it out. Maybe I'll have my sister take a pic I can post tomorrow.

Laters,
Erin

Day 1

Hello everyone!

My name is Erin and I'm starting a project. A weight loss project. More precisely a weight loss blog.

It's probably been done before, but I feel that this could be the best way for me to succeed at what I've been trying to do for years.

First I little information about myself.

This is me:

I'm female.
I'm 26.
I'm 5' 5".
I'm 313.0 lbs (as of 3:13pm CST)
I'm....... wait......... 313 @ 3:13.......... weird.
Anyways...
I'm single.
I live with my sister and her dog.
I'm from a large family. Not large as in I have many siblings, but large as in overweight.
I have a history of cancer in my family.
My grandmother died of cancer that I attribute to Phen-phen, thought everyone tells me I'm wrong. (She didn't have cancer. Took Phen-phen. Lost a bunch of weight. Gained some awesome new CANCER. She died. Tell me where this doesn't correlate...)


I'm veering towards depressing things. So I will now explain what I plan on doing.


1. I'm gonna write everyday, hopefully around the same time.
2. I'm gonna talk about what exercise I've done through the day.
3. I'm gonna talk about the food I've eaten.
4. I'm gonna keep a daily weight record.


Rinse and repeat.


So for today I've................ weighed myself. I haven't eaten anything yet today, so that's on my list and so is some exercise.


It may be better to report on what I did the previous day. (I've really planned ahead.)


So tomorrow's post will have what I did today and I will continue on that track.


Laters,
Erin